A few weeks ago I lost a beloved member of our family, my uncle Jack. He was a strong, funny and loving guy who always made me feel special. His laugh was contagious and he seemed to touch everyone’s life in a positive way. Every time I saw him he told me I was beautiful. Since I always felt less than that, those words really boosted my confidence in a profound way.
My uncle was a cop in Newark for 30+ years ending this career as Lieutenant and experienced the race riots of the 60’s alongside my grandfather who was Chief at the time. Luckily for me I come from a long line of strong, courageous and good people! During the services my uncle son, Kevin, spoke about his courage. Not only did he have incredible courage on the streets of Newark but he faced tremendous adversity at home; two of his sons had gone through major medical challenges and he lost his wife four years ago.
When I lose a loved one it forces me to think about life. What have I done on this Earth to make my mark? What will people remember me for? Perhaps I’m a freak who thinks too much and cares too much about what people think but what do we learn from people who have gone before us?
I may not be a famous actress or a Nobel Prize winner but in my own corner of the world I hope to have left these things behind:
- To inspire people to feel good about themselves. Through my blog or even just through conversation I want people to know they aren’t alone because we all struggle with body image, confidence, relationships, family, money, work, friends etc.
- Do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Just like my uncle told me that I’m beautiful, what can you say to your loved ones to make them feel good?
- Happiness. No matter what makes you happy in life, go for it. Do what makes you happy because in the words of Ferris, “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around every once in a while you could miss it”. What are we doing here if we aren’t happy?
Maybe I sound like a peace loving hippie but let the love shine in bitches! Namaste.
I am so excited about this year’s Biggest Loser because it features former athletes who had given up on their healthy regiments and fighting back to get in shape again. I recently find myself in the same position. I had started a weight loss journey and have admittedly gotten off track.
I am not back where I started but I had worked so hard that I needed a reminder that it doesn’t just stop and I have to keep going! I ask myself, what is holding you back from moving forward? It’s mostly fear! It’s funny because I have written about fear being a wall blocking us from what we want and here I am, in fear.
I have a big fear of failing. What if I fail at getting back on track? What if I start up boot camp again and everyone I had worked out with is so far ahead of me now? I am a naturally competitive person but need to remind myself that my only competition is me!
So, here I am reminding myself and you not to be afraid and the only person who can make a change is you. Who wants to get back on track with me? I’ll be your workout buddy near or far. Let’s do this!
In the beginning of the summer I set a goal for myself of completing the Jersey Shore Golden Grand Prix. It was a fairly lofty goal since I had never done any five mile races and had to complete two! The races to complete were the Spring Lake 5, George Sheehan Classic, Belmar 5, Asbury Park 5K and the Pier House 5K and I did it!
I had moments that I shed a tear because it was so hot and didn’t think I could do it but I am most thankful for my mom being there at each one. Having the support of a loved one is so important and I couldn’t have done it without her.
Yesterday I heard the news about Robin Williams and felt sorrow for his friends and family. I know too well the pain they are experiencing and the question the are undoubtedly asking themselves: Why? or I should have done… Unfortunately for them they will never have an answer and will likely live with some form of guilt the rest of their lives.
Depression and mental illness are diseases that are too easily disregarded in our country and our communities. People are ashamed to admit they may have a problem and don’t seek the help they need. I don’t know one person who hasn’t experienced some form of depression and yet we don’t talk about it. Mental illness is like “the cancer” of olden times. People whisper about it in fear.
In the last few years I have joined the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention which raises money to educate our communities and get the help people desperately need. It’s so important to let people know there is help and not to be ashamed to seek it. Please consider donating to this amazing organization for my upcoming walk: https://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donate.participant&participantID=551483
Despite that most of us do not personally know Mr. Williams, he has touched each one of us in an amazing way through his incredible talent. I am hopeful that we all learn something from this tragedy and perhaps it will shed light on this important topic that affects every single one of us.
Let me first say that I am not a seasoned dater. Dating is fun, but the process seems so difficult and daunting. You start talking to someone online and then you text and then call and then an actual date. Right now I am in the infancy stages of talking to someone via text. Not my ideal way of communicating but it is what it is.
So far the guy has been very nice and he’s good looking. He’s a professional and we seem to like the same things. Perfect! Well….things just got weird. Out of the blue he texted me something very sexual. This was completely out the blue which resulted in this look all the way home from work….
I did not say anything that would lead him to that comment! Now I am totally disappointed because I’m not looking for a hook up and why on Earth would you say that? Obviously we have different goals in mind.
This leads me to dating etiquette. What are the right and wrong things to say and do? Is it so hard to court someone the traditional way these days? I just want to give up. Help!
I just went in to update my Race Times page and realized it’s been a month since I’ve blogged. Time flies when you’re having fun I suppose!
Just a quick update for my amazing followers….
Back in May I took a much deserved vacation to visit family in Miami. I came back from vaca and found out two of my team members had decided to leave the company and some major accounts ended up in my lap. After deciding on vacation that I wouldn’t allow work to stress me out I was thrown into a less than ideal situation.
I have a sign on my desk that says, “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.” This quote really came in handy as I took a different approach to what was going on and two months later I am in a really good place. The account is running extremely well and my bosses are very happy. All-in-all a true success!
As far as running goes I have been very bad with being consistent. I did set a goal for myself to complete the Jersey Shore Grand Prix and only have two more races to go to complete it. I also completed my second five mile race in Belmar and that really tested me. It was a very hot day, there didnt’ seem to be enough water stops and people were puking and passing out. Once I hit mile two, I wanted to give up and I may have started to cry a little or maybe it was sweat?! Either way, I was afraid. I was afraid of failing and afraid of being last but then I remembered to “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.” This couldn’t have been so true as I came toward the finish line, my friend Jess jumped in and ran with me to the end and my family cheered me on. It was a rough race but finishing made up for the doubts.
This weekend my running will come full circle as I participate in the Sea Girt 5K. It was my first race as a runner last year and my goal is to beat my time from last year but the way I’m trending right now it may not happen. But…. “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”