How Do I Begin Again?

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I am so excited about this year’s Biggest Loser because it features former athletes who had given up on their healthy regiments and fighting back to get in shape again.  I recently find myself in the same position.  I had started a weight loss journey and have admittedly gotten off track.

I am not back where I started but I had worked so hard that I needed a reminder that it doesn’t just stop and I have to keep going!  I ask myself, what is holding you back from moving forward?  It’s mostly fear!  It’s funny because I have written about fear being a wall blocking us from what we want and here I am, in fear.

I have a big fear of failing.  What if I fail at getting back on track?  What if I start up boot camp again and everyone I had worked out with is so far ahead of me now?  I am a naturally competitive person but need to remind myself that my only competition is me!

So, here I am reminding myself and you not to be afraid and the only person who can make a change is you.  Who wants to get back on track with me?  I’ll be your workout buddy near or far.  Let’s do this!

I Did It!

In the beginning of the summer I set a goal for myself of completing the Jersey Shore Golden Grand Prix.  It was a fairly lofty goal since I had never done any five mile races and had to complete two!  The races to complete were the Spring Lake 5, George Sheehan Classic, Belmar 5, Asbury Park 5K and the Pier House 5K and I did it!

I had moments that I shed a tear because it was so hot and didn’t think I could do it but I am most thankful for my mom being there at each one.  Having the support of a loved one is so important and I couldn’t have done it without her.

Thanks Mom!!

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Suicide Education

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Yesterday I heard the news about Robin Williams and felt sorrow for his friends and family.  I know too well the pain they are experiencing and the question the are undoubtedly asking themselves: Why? or I should have done… Unfortunately for them they will never have an answer and will likely live with some form of guilt the rest of their lives.

Depression and mental illness are diseases that are too easily disregarded in our country and our communities.  People are ashamed to admit they may have a problem and don’t seek the help they need.  I don’t know one person who hasn’t experienced some form of depression and yet we don’t talk about it.  Mental illness is like “the cancer” of olden times.  People whisper about it in fear.

In the last few years I have joined the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention which raises money to educate our communities and get the help people desperately need.  It’s so important to let people know there is help and not to be ashamed to seek it.  Please consider donating to this amazing organization for my upcoming walk:  https://afsp.donordrive.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=donate.participant&participantID=551483

Despite that most of us do not personally know Mr. Williams, he has touched each one of us in an amazing way through his incredible talent.  I am hopeful that we all learn something from this tragedy and perhaps it will shed light on this important topic that affects every single one of us.

Dating Etiquette

Let me first say that I am not a seasoned dater.  Dating is fun, but the process seems so difficult and daunting.  You start talking to someone online and then you text and then call and then an actual date.  Right now I am in the infancy stages of talking to someone via text.  Not my ideal way of communicating but it is what it is.

So far the guy has been very nice and he’s good looking.  He’s a professional and we seem to like the same things.  Perfect!  Well….things just got weird.  Out of the blue he texted me something very sexual.  This was completely out the blue which resulted in this look all the way home from work….

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I did not say anything that would lead him to that comment!  Now I am totally disappointed because I’m not looking for a hook up and why on Earth would you say that?  Obviously we have different goals in mind.

This leads me to dating etiquette.  What are the right and wrong things to say and do?  Is it so hard to court someone the traditional way these days?  I just want to give up.  Help!

Stop Being Afraid of What Could Go Wrong

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I just went in to update my Race Times page and realized it’s been a month since I’ve blogged.  Time flies when you’re having fun I suppose!

Just a quick update for my amazing followers….

Back in May I took a much deserved vacation to visit family in Miami.  I came back from vaca and found out two of my team members had decided to leave the company and some major accounts ended up in my lap.  After deciding on vacation that I wouldn’t allow work to stress me out I was thrown into a less than ideal situation.

I have a sign on my desk that says, “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”  This quote really came in handy as I took a different approach to what was going on and two months later I am in a really good place.  The account is running extremely well and my bosses are very happy.  All-in-all a true success!

As far as running goes I have been very bad with being consistent.  I did set a goal for myself to complete the Jersey Shore Grand Prix and only have two more races to go to complete it.  I also completed my second five mile race in Belmar and that really tested me.  It was a very hot day, there didnt’ seem to be enough water stops and people were puking and passing out.  Once I hit mile two, I wanted to give up and I may have started to cry a little or maybe it was sweat?!  Either way, I was afraid.  I was afraid of failing and afraid of being last but then I remembered to “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”  This couldn’t have been so true as I came toward the finish line, my friend Jess jumped in and ran with me to the end and my family cheered me on.  It was a rough race but finishing made up for the doubts.

This weekend my running will come full circle as I participate in the Sea Girt 5K.  It was my first race as a runner last year and my goal is to beat my time from last year but the way I’m trending right now it may not happen.  But…. “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”

 

Long Island Medium: My Experience

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Last weekend my friend Dawn and I went to see Theresa Caputo, The Long Island Medium, at The Beacon Theater in New York City.  Having bought the tickets on a whim a couple of months back I wasn’t sure what to expect.  I wasn’t an avid watcher of her TV show on TLC but I did hear that her live show was a good experience.  Getting closer to the date there were rumblings going around that she was a fraud.

The Beacon Theater is a pretty beautiful place with a lot of history.  My only experiences thus far was Allman Brother shows and if you’ve been you know what that’s like :) But I digress…the theater was a great backdrop to this show in particular because it is eerily beautiful.

I consider myself fairly a sensitive person and the energy in the room made me a little teary-eyed from the start.  Every single one of the attendees was there with hope to get a message from a loved one who had passed on just like me.  Teresa came out and a gorgeous outfit with her big blonde hair and sparkley Loubiton’s.  She is a funny ball of energy who enjoyed poking fun at the naysayers on the internet.

She began by describing what she does and set the expectations of the audience.  For example, she is only drawn to people by their loved ones who come through.  She does not have control over what side of the room she is drawn to so don’t get upset if she spends more time in the orchestra or on the right side and she will come to you.

One of the first people she went to was an older man who had lost his father.  Shocking!  It’s so rare that an older man has lost his father! But what is most interesting are details that aren’t readily available.  For example, she asked him if he recently sold a house to which he said he was in the middle of doing.  She told him not to have regrets with this sale and to move forward with his plan.  The man was visibly choked up because he felt his father was there watching over him.  This triggered about everyone in the audience to shed a tear.

During our time with Theresa she flitted throughout the theater going from place to place as the passed ones would tap her shoulder and direct her where to go. Eventually she made her way up to my area to a couple in their 30’s.  She was drawn to them because she felt as though someone had drowned.

The man that she was drawn to had lost his brother in a lake.  He was there at the time and had lived with a lot of guilt to which she told him there was nothing he could have done and his brother said he is ok and to move forward without letting this tragedy hold him back.  Before Theresa left to move to the next person she asked something about shorts.  His wife said, I actually had a conversation with my husband while getting ready to come here and told him how much I hate shorts and decided not to wear them.  Per Teresa, it’s these conversations and experiences we have in life that our loved ones are still a part of despite them not physically being with us.  It is their spirit that lives on.

The whole time Theresa was in my section delivering this message, I kept repeating my brother’s name, Sean, over and over again in my mind hoping that he would come through.  Unfortunately, that did not happen to me.

I am still on the fence about her “gift” because I will never know if she has spotters in the audience or if what she does is real.  I will only believe if she says something to me because I will be the only one who knows what conversations and experiences I have had with my brother.  While I did leave somewhat disappointed I left with hope that he is with me and my family everyday through the new memories and the memories we share of him with each other.

If you have missed my blog about the death of my brother, you can catch up here:  http://wp.me/p3imNB-1m  Please be kind and consider donating to a reputable organization to prevent/educate our communities about suicide.