Update: I’m Scared!!

lessons

If you read my last entry you remember that each day I’m attempting to do something that scares me. So here is what I learned so far:

Day 2/June 27: I took control of a client call even though I’m new to the company and the client. I also went to an intense workout after a 6 week hiatus. I was pretty close to puking since I haven’t been eating much the last few days but it reminded me not to stop going. Lesson: Even though sticking your neck out can be risky, it can also be rewarding. Today, my superior told me he was very impressed with what I’ve done on this account so far and loves my proactiveness.

Day 3/June 28: I started my current job about 4 weeks ago and it’s been kind of scarey at times. Sure I was comfortable at my last job but there were some aspects that I wasn’t happy with. It’s pretty scarey not knowing if the grass is greener on the other side. Lesson: Even if the grass isn’t greener on the other side, it doesn’t mean you can’t move on from there. Luckily for me the new job has been going well and the compliment (above) I received proved it!

There you have it. A few days in and I’ve already learned new things about myself and how to handle situations whether they are good or bad.

My good friend (who shall remain nameless) decided to taste her breast milk as part of this challenge. That’s pretty damn scarey if you ask me! What are you doing that scares you??

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I’m Scared!

eleanor roosevelt

I have talked about our fears in previous posts and wanted to throw in a little challenge to myself: Do 1 thing every day that scares me. 

If you do not know, this instruction comes from Eleanor Roosevelt and although the thought of it sounds silly it can be life changing.  Imagine all the things that you are afraid of and conquering them to become a stronger person.  It could be anything! Maybe you have a fear of spiders or making conversation with a stranger.  It could be even bigger like being in a bad relationship and getting out of it.

I won’t post something everyday but I’ll do a round up each week with the outcome.  Who’s with me?

Day 1/June 26: Instead of sitting at my desk alone during lunch I joined a group of women and made conversation.  The social outcome is TBD but it was good to get away from my desk and take a breather.

Kidney Failure!?

We’ve all heard how important it is to drink water on a daily basis but do you actually heed the advice?  I for one, do not which is a huge mistake on my part.

I’ll admit, I hate drinking water.  It makes me feel so bloated like I’m going to float away.  But this weekend I truly learned a lesson on how important it is to drink water.

On Saturday morning I got up and felt like going for a nice walk on the beach.  So I texted my friend Billy who happened to be in town from NYC and we hit the boardwalk.  It was a gorgeous morning around 9am and we started at the beginning of Belmar.  I figured we would walk to the end of Belmar and back and be done but we were talking and just kept going.

I caught him up on my crazy online dating experiences and he told me about his recent audition for HBO’s “Girls”.  Before we knew it we were at the end of the Spring Lake boardwalk . While we were walking I had my Map My Run app going to track our time and distance and at this point we hit about 3 miles.

On the way back it started to get pretty hot and I could feel my skin burning.  Since I didn’t expect to go on the long trek that we did, I did not put on sunscreen.  Irish girl fail!  See below…

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Half way back my legs started to hurt but we had to keep going because no one’s going to pick my butt up.  We made it to the end (after 7.3 miles and over 2 hours), got in the car and he suggested we go to Toast in Asbury Park.  Once we got there we had a bit of a wait so I suggested we stop at the Brickwall and grab a beer.  I tried the Hell or High Watermelon beer which was light and delicious.

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When we finished we went over to Toast for breakfast.  When I walked in I was overwhelmed with the smell of food that I immediately felt nauseous.  (This is not at fault of Toast – this place is actually pretty amazing and last time I was there we saw Big Pussy from The Sopranos so it has a special place in my heart).  I looked at the menu and didn’t have any desire to eat because the thought of any of it made me sick.   I ended up ordering pancakes and spent the rest of the time in the bathroom because I was sure I would be sick.

Luckily, Billy suggested we go home because I would have felt too bad to make him leave on my account.

When I got home I turned the AC way up and crawled into bed and slept for a bit.  I woke up feeling much better but still sluggish.  That night I went to the Headliner for a party and had a few Coronas.  Another big mistake.

Sunday morning I woke up and my back was sore.  I didn’t dance or fall (which wouldn’t surprise anyone if this happened simultaneously) so there is no reason for this soreness.  When I touched my back I realized it was my kidneys.  I looked online to see why my kidneys would be sore and finally determined it was from dehydration.  (http://www.ener-chi.com/articles/dangers-of-dehydration/)

Saturday’s long walk without water or sunscreen plus beer = dehydration.  This truly scared me.  I was pretty nervous especially since my grandmother has had her share of kidney issues.  Everytime I got up my kidneys hurt and I was very tired.  All I could do was drink as much water as I could throughout the day.

I’m happy to report that I’m feeling much better today.  I urge everyone to drink water especially before, during and after a workout.  I really learned a good lesson this weekend.

Dear baby Jesus,

Thanks broseph for making my kidney pain go away.

Xoxo,

Liz

Looking For Love In All The Wrong Places

online dating

Since I’ve started my blog about my journey the focus has been on working out, motivation and food.  But what happens when those things start to come together and you open up to new things?  Enter: ONLINE DATING.

In college it was so easy to meet people because you either lived with them, went to class with them or partied with them.  Now, not so much.  In my 20’s I met guys at the bars but that’s not my scene anymore.  Sure I could meet a guy at church but who am I kidding?  I am not religious.  I could also meet them at the supermarket but I’d rather get my list done and get out of there.

At the advice of my mother I checked out online dating.  I have tried Match.com, eHarmony and Plenty of Fish before but I just wasn’t into it.  I didn’t feel confident at the time and didn’t make myself available.  This time around I’m trying OKCupid.

On TV I’ve seen commercials of couples who met online and got married. How awesome!  That could be me!  These are great looking people and boy, are they happy!  Let’s be real, that is NOT what is online.  So far I’ve come across guys who look like they should be in jail, their full-time job is being a waiter, they want to meet right now to hook up or their profile includes pictures in groups so I have no clue which is the guy!  My favorite one may have been today…A guy who posted he was married and wanted to talk to me.  I asked if he was married and he said, “yes, do you still want to talk”?  “No thanks and good luck!”

Why is it so hard for a smart, funny, kinda cute single girl to meet a man who is employed, single, funny and decent looking? Is that so much to ask?

I’ve prayed to baby Jesus in my blog before so it couldn’t hurt to call out to him again, right?

Dear Baby Jesus,

Please send me a nice, smart, funny, family-oriented guy who appreciates me for being a total goofball but also a great cook!

Love,

Single and awesome Liz 🙂

 

I’ve Been In A Funk!

bathing suit

It’s been 15 days since I last blogged.  This is pretty unusual for me and for no good reason.

I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks.  Nothing.  Nada.  Zero.  Zilch.  I’ve felt so unmotivated lately.  Maybe it’s due to the weather in Jersey lately or maybe it’s because I am lazy.

I feel like a failure especially since my last blog was about not quitting and not giving in to the fear.  I haven’t quit but I’ve allowed the fear to take control.  I fear the new instructors at my gym and now that it’s been 2 weeks I fear that it will hurt or I’ll get nauseous like when I first started.

I’m still eating pretty well and don’t feel that I’ve gained anything but the energy has depleated as well as my self confidence.  Last Friday I went to Atlantic City with my girlfriends and I was just not myself.  I was quiet and overall in a funk.  I wasn’t sure why but thinking back on it I feel like I’ve let myself down.

After work I’m going to hit the boards and get back on track.  Let’s do this!

 

Don’t Let The Fear Break You

Fear

Fear:  (noun) a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain,etc., whether the threat is real or imagined.

Last week my Aunt Kathy (mother of a Navy SEAL) shared a speech with me that Adm. Eric T. Olson of the Navy SEALs had given at a college graduation. (Click Here to read)  The overall message, in my opinion, is not letting the fear break you.

It really stuck with me because I fear something almost every day.  I’m not talking about big life fears like why I’m still single or maybe I’ll die a single cat lady all alone, but just little ones that seem to add up like going out of my way to meet people at my new job or fearing my workout.  If I allow my fears to take hold of me then I wouldn’t get to my end goal.

Tonight, I conquered a fear.  I recently joined a new gym because of convenience.  I was afraid of leaving where my journey started because I grew familiar with the trainers and my fellow sweaters!  But tonight I took my first class at the new place.   EVERYONE was in such good shape!  I thought for sure I was screwed!  To my surprise I actually did really well.  I felt like I was prepared and actually beat some muscle dudes at sprinting and bear crawls!  Suckas!

But I digress….I want you to know that letting the fear break you only leads you to quit.  Don’t quit!  Yes, you will sweat and it may be painful but keep going because each time you fight the fear, you will be so proud of yourself.