It’s been 15 days since I last blogged. This is pretty unusual for me and for no good reason.
I haven’t worked out in 2 weeks. Nothing. Nada. Zero. Zilch. I’ve felt so unmotivated lately. Maybe it’s due to the weather in Jersey lately or maybe it’s because I am lazy.
I feel like a failure especially since my last blog was about not quitting and not giving in to the fear. I haven’t quit but I’ve allowed the fear to take control. I fear the new instructors at my gym and now that it’s been 2 weeks I fear that it will hurt or I’ll get nauseous like when I first started.
I’m still eating pretty well and don’t feel that I’ve gained anything but the energy has depleated as well as my self confidence. Last Friday I went to Atlantic City with my girlfriends and I was just not myself. I was quiet and overall in a funk. I wasn’t sure why but thinking back on it I feel like I’ve let myself down.
After work I’m going to hit the boards and get back on track. Let’s do this!