I have committed to interval running on the boardwalk a few times a week for about 30 minutes. I am building up to two 5Ks I have signed up for in August: Sea Girt and Bradley Beach. I am pretty psyched to do them with a few friends and can’t wait to cross the finish line.
Last night as I was on the boards doing the usual and came across so many awesome people. These people are on the same path of health and fitness that I am. Most of them smiled at me as I passed as a sign to keep going. I felt at peace with myself and what I want to do for my mind and body.
A few years ago I had an anxiety issue due to a job I was in that I loathed. I would get up every morning, get ready for work, go out to walk the dog and I couldn’t breathe. I started to panic and it was so hard to pull myself out.
I went to my regular doctor who suggested some anti-anxiety meds but it was impossible to take in the morning because I wasn’t allowed to “operate heavy machinery” aka my car. The meds caused drowsiness and I wasn’t about to miss work and dig an even deeper hole.
I can remember my earliest panic attacks while I was in 4th grade. Because my brother had been going through his depression problems I always felt like something was wrong at home and I had to be there. I would start to feel sick to my stomach and go to the nurse so I could go home. Who knew back then what I had?
Fast forward to 2011, I started to see a therapist who taught me how to manage the anxiety without the help of medication. We tried breathing techniques which worked and then I got myself into yoga. This seemed to work but more importantly I quit my job and moved on.
In the last few weeks I’ve started getting anxiety again. Not for any particular reason and certainly not my new job but running and yoga are helping tremendously. I want to avoid any medication if I can.
After running last night I tried a new 90-minute yoga class called “candlelight yoga”. There were no candles. I can only assume the name because it was in the evening? Either way, I felt better than I have in a long time. I am so looking forward to running and yogaing again this week!
Lastly, Happy 4th of July to you all!! I’ll be taking a break until next week. Enjoy!