I was secretly on a mission for the last 11 months and I am sad to report that I have failed. My goal was to meet a hot and super rich guy to marry and travel with and never work again.
I have put my goal aside (for now 😉 ) and found a new job! I’m pretty excited because it’s something new but nervous AF hoping I do a good job. I do feel good about it because they have already set up a Welcome Liz Lunch (I love lunching!) whereas my last employer threw me in a cube and my boss didn’t talk to me for six months.
With that said, I came across a blog I never posted when I was down in the dumps. I had made a list of goals that I have mostly accomplished:
- Stop the negativity – work in progress
- Do what makes me happy – my favorite one!
- Walk everyday – eh, working on that
- Love myself – work in progress
I have made a lot of changes since I made this list and feel really good. I probably haven’t felt this good for an extended period of time in years. I am not perfect and I will stumble but I am conscious of what I need to do to stay on track.
My time “off” has been time well spent. I have helped others which fills my heart and others have helped me. In down times we learn who our friends our and I certainly did. My friends have really stuck by me and when I was a raging bitch or in a dark place; they certainly made it known and balanced me. THANK YOU!
My parents have been my safety net and I am incredibly lucky to have them. Despite disagreements I know they have my best interest at heart. ❤
Lastly, like the quote about says, “Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don’t lose faith.” It’s easy to be positive when things are going right for me at the moment, but I learned how to have faith in myself. No one can ever bring you down unless you let them. This was a hard lesson for me because it meant I had to be mentally strong and block out the bullshit. I built that faith in myself by knowing I was better than what anyone says or thinks. I had faith that I am a hard worker and would figure out a way if I didn’t find a job. There is always a way…
In August I started back at Ultimate Fit Zone . It was going really well three weeks and then I went on a trip to Bermuda. I packed my gym clothes for the trip and visited the gym the first day to get acclimated but never worked out.
I returned from my trip and took off another week because I just wasn’t motivated to go back yet. On Monday I finally pushed myself and it was a disaster. I started out jumping rope with five meter long jump in between then we moved onto weights and pulls ups. I nearly passed out and stopped the workout.
Embarrassed, I left the gym as quickly as I could. I was not focused, didn’t want to be there and taking the time off was a big set back for me but I sure as hell wasn’t going to quit.
I’m far from perfect and we all have bad days. That was mine. The important lesson though is that I didn’t give up. I went right back to it another day and kicked ass. Below is the workout I did and was damn proud.
The point is, no matter what you’re doing in your life you will have a set back or a bad day but never give up if you want something.
Every week, my very good friend drives up to North Jersey from Ocean County for her chemo treatments to fight breast cancer. Last week, I had the honor of going with her. Admittedly I was nervous because I’m queasy around needles but mostly because I didn’t know what to expect of others.
The hospital in which the chemo treatment took place had a floor dedicated to the treatment. A whole floor that ran like a well oiled machine from checking in, getting your name called, taking your blood, getting a seat number, picking up warm blankets and a pillow and then your cocktail is delivered. Each and every one of the staff was friendly and upbeat. I guess there is no other choice than to be positive in a fearful place.
In true life fashion, my fears were unnecessary. The needles made me light headed, yes, but fearing the unexpected wasn’t all that scary. There were a few patients that sat in the chair next to us who had ports. (Luckily for my friend, a port isn’t necessary.) The ports remind me of something sci-fi; getting plugged up to tubes delivering your custom cocktail. The “plug” reminded me of my iPhone plug but instead of going into the wall, it was going near the patient’s heart.
The real scary thing was how many patients were there. I wonder quite often why so many people have cancer. This can go into a whole other topic but it’s important to acknowledge that treatment is more available than 10, 20, 30 years ago.
In the end, the experience is very humbling. Each patient’s diagnoses and experience is different yet there is a special connection between them like their own lingo: WBC numbers or counts, chemo brain, how many treatments are left for them, sharing after-chemo experiences. My hope is that all those people I saw today are able to walk away and live happy healthy lives.
I am so very proud of my friend for being a strong and beautiful person throughout her journey to health. She is way more beautiful without her hair because of her strength.
The other day I was sitting on the beach with my friend explaining how hard the dating scene is. I had been on a couple dates and had a couple coming up. Unfortunately, the one had cancelled our 2nd date the day before due to work schedule which is totally understandable.
Since I’m an open book I have to admit I took a blow to the ego. Did he not want to see me again and this was an excuse or maybe he really was just busy with work?! This is how my brain functions: I question things and think things to death until I exhaust myself and build anxiety that’s unnecessary. A lot of people think I’m calm and collected, which I generally am, but I’m a basket case on the inside.
Going back to the relaxing beach scene….my friend gave me really good advice: Stop over thinking and do something for yourself. That can mean different things to different people but to me it means focus on me being happy and healthy.
The gears start churning in my head trying to think of what I can do to change things for me and I asked myself, what have I done in the past that makes me feel good, not only mentally but physically?
If you haven’t been following my blog, roughly two years ago I started at Ultimate Fit Zone by joining their boot camp classes. I did it for about three months and then went into running. (I quit way too early!) It was the only workout that worked for me. Encouraging trainers and peers and I did things I never imaged I could do with my body. So, the bitch is back…
I figure we only live one life so live it happy! In closing, I ask you…what are you waiting for to do what makes YOU happy?
I think most people by now have come across the article on 2015 sunscreens to avoid and what you should be using. (http://www.vancitybuzz.com/2015/06/neutrogena-sunscreen-toxic-avoid/)
I take sunscreen very seriously because of my Irish fair skin and family history. In the past I only trusted Neutrogena particularly on my face. I only use Neutogena face cleansing products on my face and have for years and years. It’s Dermatologist recommended, right?
As you can imagine I was very disheartened to hear it may be toxic for my skin. Whether that’s sunscreen only or all of their products, I decided to explore the suggested products according to the “Environmental Working Group” (EWG). I don’t know who this group is and frankly sounds like a new category for the Westminster Dog Show but what the hey – they explored an important topic.
Reading through the list there are many brands on the “best” list that are familiar to me: Bullfrog, Burt’s Bees, Earth’s Best, Jersey Shore Sun (GTL), and The Honest Company. If you don’t know by now, The Honest Company was founded by Jessica Alba to make baby and home products available that are safe and healthy for all. I’m sure there are many wonderful products people have tried but I can tell you the sunscreen is going in the garbage.
One important feature of a product that is a must is that it’s not greasy/oily. This was about as greasy as baby oil in the 70’s and totally skeeved me out. I couldn’t get it off my face fast enough that I used Bath & Body Works antibacterial hand soap to wash it off.
So, I am asking for help on sunscreen recommendations. If you know of any brands on the “best” list in the link listed above that not only is a good sunscreen, safe for the face, water-resistant and non-greasy, please let me know. My skin thanks you…
It’s time to get back into the swing of things with eating healthy and being good to my body through activity. It has been a long cold winter that’s been a big setback especially since I am signed up for the Spring Lake 5 miler in 32 days. Eeek!
No worries though because a goal without a plan is just a wish and I have a plan! My plan is to keep those amazing Boston Marathoners from yesterday in my mind. There were survivors of the attacks that crossed the finish line, others in their 60’s – 80’s, and who can leave out “Rudy” Sean Astin?
How can I possibly say I can’t do a 5 miler when these amazing, inspiring and strong-minded individuals who have more reason than me to not finish, have completed a marathon?!
My other plan is to be prepared! This morning I put out my clothes for later today despite my dog’s unhappiness that he’ll lose me for an hour.
Wish me luck!
I have a friend at work who I confide in about my work and life challenges. Every few weeks she tells me that I need a change of scenery. It seems like a simple suggestion but then my brain goes into overdrive…
A change of scenery could mean two things: changing jobs or moving away. The moving away part seems to cross my mind more often lately but that’s a major change that I don’t know I’m willing to make. I have my family and friends in the tri-state area that I couldn’t live without.
Sure, I make friends everywhere I go, but moving states away? Is a big move like that worth leaving those important people behind? The thought of that brings on anxiety and fear but could it be worth it in the long run?
I need to hear from people who have made big changes like this. Was it worth it? Were you so terrified of that change but laughed at it later on? Was it a huge mistake? I need your help because this girl needs a change!