Stop Being Afraid of What Could Go Wrong

stop being afraid

I just went in to update my Race Times page and realized it’s been a month since I’ve blogged.  Time flies when you’re having fun I suppose!

Just a quick update for my amazing followers….

Back in May I took a much deserved vacation to visit family in Miami.  I came back from vaca and found out two of my team members had decided to leave the company and some major accounts ended up in my lap.  After deciding on vacation that I wouldn’t allow work to stress me out I was thrown into a less than ideal situation.

I have a sign on my desk that says, “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”  This quote really came in handy as I took a different approach to what was going on and two months later I am in a really good place.  The account is running extremely well and my bosses are very happy.  All-in-all a true success!

As far as running goes I have been very bad with being consistent.  I did set a goal for myself to complete the Jersey Shore Grand Prix and only have two more races to go to complete it.  I also completed my second five mile race in Belmar and that really tested me.  It was a very hot day, there didnt’ seem to be enough water stops and people were puking and passing out.  Once I hit mile two, I wanted to give up and I may have started to cry a little or maybe it was sweat?!  Either way, I was afraid.  I was afraid of failing and afraid of being last but then I remembered to “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”  This couldn’t have been so true as I came toward the finish line, my friend Jess jumped in and ran with me to the end and my family cheered me on.  It was a rough race but finishing made up for the doubts.

This weekend my running will come full circle as I participate in the Sea Girt 5K.  It was my first race as a runner last year and my goal is to beat my time from last year but the way I’m trending right now it may not happen.  But…. “Stop being afraid of what could go wrong and start being positive about what could go right.”



Tunnel To Towers


This Sunday I will be doing my first Tunnel To Towers 5K in NYC.  I am beyond excited and proud to run in honor of the brave who ran into the World Trade Center towers while everyone was trying to get out.

The route traces the run firefighter Stephen Siller took to get to the World Trade Center on 9/11.  Running from Brooklyn, through the Brooklyn Battery Tunnel to Ground Zero in full gear.

I came across this footage from last year and it gave me chills…

I’ve also been told that soldiers in Afghanistan will be running along with us too.

I believe WCBS will be broadcasting live and you may see me!  I’ll be sure to take as many photos and video as I can to share with you.  Wish me luck!

My New Habit


I’m definitely the girl on the left!

The weekend is here and it appears that I’m starting a new habit:  5K’s and a date!

Last weekend I completed my first 5K (as a runner) and on Monday I must have been high because I signed up for this weekend’s Asbury Park 5K.  Not sure what I was thinking but it’s not like I can’t do it, right!?!

I also met a guy and set a date for Saturday night.  I have a good feeling about this one 🙂  He is into Crossfit and cycling which is awesome so I know he’s not sedentary.  But other than that he seems really nice and can hold a conversation without mentioning sex.  (Take a clue Botchagaloop!)

I’ll be sure to update you all on the flipside!

Date #1

Not only do I have my first 5K since workin’ on my fitness but I also have a date this weekend.  What was I thinking?

Oh well.  As my friend Hottie says, “balls to the wall.”

Here’s a taste of what’s going on in my head:

  • What should I wear?  He’s slightly shorter than me and only heals would be appropriate with the dress I have in mind.  Will I look like a sasquatch?!


  • Where are we going to go?  I’m a slight control freak and need to know the plan.  What time?  What are we doing?  How much $$ should I bring if he turns out to be a putz?


  • What is my exit strategy if he is a putz?  I will probably seek out the nearest emergency exit sign and/or window to jump out of.



In the last couple of months I’ve seen my friends post this on their Facebook status:

Did you know the people that are the strongest are usually the most sensitive? Did you know the people who exhibit the most kindness are the first to get mistreated? Did you know the one who takes care of others all the time are usually the ones who need it the most? Did you know the 3 hardest things to say are I love you, I’m sorry, and Help me. Sometimes just because a person looks happy, you have to look past their smile and see how much pain they may be in. To all my friends who are going through some issues right now–Let’s start an intention avalanche. We all need positive intentions right now. If I don’t see your name, I’ll understand. May I ask my friends wherever you might be, to kindly copy and paste this status for one hour to give a moment of support to all those who have family problems, health struggles, job issues, worries of any kind and just need to know that someone cares. Do it for all of us, for nobody is immune. I hope to see this on the walls of all my friends just for moral support. I know some will!! I did it for a friend and you can too.

This really got me thinking about people who are going through a tough time and you don’t even know it.  Maybe their grandmother is ill, are going through a tough breakup, simply having a bad hair day or contemplating suicide because all those things add up and nothing seems to get better.

When I started my workouts I was very unhappy with myself.  I was ashamed of how I looked, what I was eating, lack of exercise and motivation.  The hardest thing I did was reach out for help.  I didn’t want to admit I felt bad about myself but by telling someone I wanted to change brought me to where I am today.

More recently I haven’t been feeling like my smilely, motivated and outgoing self.  I’ve lost the motivation to do positive things for me because it’s so much easier to do nothing.  So, I reached out for help.

Asking for help is one of the most hardest things I’ve ever done because I always wanted to be the strong one.  I wanted to be the one to care for others but I’m learning that it’s ok to be cared for.  It’s ok to cry but I also need to take action.

I’ve got two 5K’s coming up which I am totally unprepared for but since when am I Usain Bolt?!  I also royally f@#ked up my pinkie toe on 4th of July because a chair got in the way and then a few days later rolled on the outide of the same foot.  My health insurance doesn’t kick in ’til Sept. 1 so I’m limping around the office like a bird with an injured wing.

But, who cares!? I’m still going to do these runs with or without the pain because I committed to it and I’m going to finish it dammit!

More importantly, check up on your friends and see how they’re doing.  Be kind to those who are driving slow in the fast lane because maybe they’re mourning the loss of a loved one and are totally oblivious.  Don’t judge people without being in their shoes because some day that will be you.

I want to know if you’ve bee through a rough patch in your life and you asked for help.  What happened when you did?

Honey, I Don’t “Pulse” In Private


The last few days I’ve been doing really well with keeping active. Even though the rain clouds were coming into my area on Friday I decided to go for an interval run on the boardwalk anyway. This of course took place after I took at nap when I got home from work. At first it was kind of fun because it’s just rain but then it started pelting me in the face and I was over it. Ugh, and it was ruining my hair! So, that only lasted about 1.5 miles.

Saturday I got up and went back for more but luckily the sun was shining and the breeze was cool. I went for 2.8 miles for the interval run (C25K) and it felt so good.  The C25K program is really great because I’m trying to build up to running a 5k straight through.  For all who want to join me, I’ll be doing the Sea Girt 5K on August 3.  It’s $20 before July 10 ($25 after) so get registered!

On Sunday I went to a basic yoga class at my gym and my friend Chelsea joined me.  I was really happy she offered to come because it was my first yoga class in a while and it’s always more fun when a friend tags along.  The class was large and mostly older people (as in 50++).  I thought, “Awesome!  If they can do this so can I”.  After a few poses I picked out the overachievers that compelte the poses before the instructor, the women who are looking to clear their minds of their husbands and get peace and quiet from their grandchildren as well as the random men.

There were definitnely a few moments of quiet laughter coming from Chelsea and I.  Like when we had to lay on our back, spread our legs in the air and “pulse”.  Honey, I don’t “pulse” in private.  Or the icing on the cake was at the end when we were in relaxation mode and an older man behind us started to snore.  I quickly learned that while it’s awesome to go with a friend to yoga, never ever do it next to each other.  I couldn’t look at her face because I started to lose it.

Overall it was a good weekend.  Today I feel amazing and looking forward to the week ahead!