Adjusting My Sails

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This past September I was nearly laid off again.  This was five months into a new job after being laid off for 18 months!  I was in a state of panic and disappointment.  I just wanted a job that I enjoy doing with people I like and decent pay.  My company was going through a reorganization and my position was no longer necessary because they were moving into a more automated process. Luckily for me, they saw my good work ethic and I was well liked so I talked myself into another position to keep working.  Unfortunately, I talked myself into an IT help desk role.

I say unfortunately because I did not have a strong IT background or even answered phones as my job! How can I solve user’s problems if I don’t even know what to do!?  A few weeks into this new role I had major anxiety every morning and even walked out of the office one day to cry in my car.  Crying = literally blubbering on the phone with my friend Stacey.  I wanted out of this job immediately.

Quitting without backup wasn’t an option and I really do like who I work with so I kept with it.  I started giving myself pep talks in the morning, learned how to curb my anxiety and embrace the qualities I do have to offer instead of focusing on what I don’t have.  I have made every effort to treat every frustrated user with patience and kindness while attempting to be confident in what I was doing.

I am four months in and I feel really good with how far I have come.  I still love who I work with and have built a rapport with many of the user that call in.  I feel confident in my ability to do my job which is a 180 from where I started.

I share these details because I want people to know that even though change sucks and times do get difficult; to push through because coming out the other side and learning things about yourself is priceless. Happy Friday xo

Don’t Lose Faith

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I was secretly on a mission for the last 11 months and I am sad to report that I have failed.  My goal was to meet a hot and super rich guy to marry and travel with and never work again.

I have put my goal aside (for now 😉 ) and found a new job!  I’m pretty excited because it’s something new but nervous AF hoping I do a good job.  I do feel good about it because they have already set up a Welcome Liz Lunch (I love lunching!) whereas my last employer threw me in a cube and my boss didn’t talk to me for six months.

With that said, I came across a blog I never posted when I was down in the dumps.  I had made a list of goals that I have mostly accomplished:

  1. Stop the negativity – work in progress
  2. Do what makes me happy – my favorite one!
  3. Walk everyday – eh, working on that
  4. Love myself – work in progress

I have made a lot of changes since I made this list and feel really good. I probably haven’t felt this good for an extended period of time in years.  I am not perfect and I will stumble but I am conscious of what I need to do to stay on track.

My time “off” has been time well spent.  I have helped others which fills my heart and others have helped me.  In down times we learn who our friends our and I certainly did.  My friends have really stuck by me and when I was a raging bitch or in a dark place; they certainly made it known and balanced me.  THANK YOU!

My parents have been my safety net and I am incredibly lucky to have them.  Despite disagreements I know they have my best interest at heart.  ❤

Lastly, like the quote about says, “Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick.  Don’t lose faith.”  It’s easy to be positive when things are going right for me at the moment, but I learned how to have faith in myself.  No one can ever bring you down unless you let them.  This was a hard lesson for me because it meant I had to be mentally strong and block out the bullshit.  I built that faith in myself by knowing I was better than what anyone says or thinks.  I had faith that I am a hard worker and would figure out a way if I didn’t find a job.  There is always a way…

Misfortune = A Lesson

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In the last few weeks I have come across some misfortune. Initially I was only sharing this information with close friends and family however I have learned so much in the last few weeks that I couldn’t help but share what I have learned.

In May, I lost my job and the grieving process started pretty quickly. The sadness and questions of why came first and then some anger started to creep in. Admittedly, I cried everyday for a week because I felt like a failure. I had always been a hard worker and have been working since I’m 14. I felt like I had lost my identity and I was incredibly embarrassed.

Eventually the sadness wore off and I realized one day that I was given an opportunity. I have more time to find something I really love or something that allows me to work to live and not live to work.

When life throws a curveball what is the best way to react? At first it may be sadness and anger but I’ve learned from many moments in life like this your actions truly show your character. The timing of my misfortune allowed me an opportunity to help others. By helping someone else, it has made me feel better about myself than I have in a long time.

It’s so important to help others in life and not expect anything in return. If you have that expectation you really aren’t helping anyone. Having that “if I scratch your back if you scratch mine” mentality is helping yourself, not others.

Sometimes blessings and opportunities don’t show themselves until time passes and like all things timing is everything.

Recognizing lessons in my journey helps me understand it all and if I can give others advice or help people feel less alone during these times then that makes me happy.

I’ll keep you posted as best I can with updates so stay tuned!

Lessons Learned From New Beginnings

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When I began this blog and my overall journey my intent was to hold myself accountable and have something to look back on to remind me of how far I came.  By sharing my fears, struggles and triumphs it never crossed my mind that this would connect me to people I already know on a different level but I also connected with strangers and even myself.

My biggest accomplishment to date was to take control of my life and not wait for things to change.  For many years I felt sorry for myself because I had been through so much that I thought, “why can’t things just go right for me for a change?”  Don’t get me wrong, I’m very lucky with my career, friends and family but I always wanted something bigger and better for myself.

By taking control I have learned so much about my own strength but was also reminded about some pretty awesome people who are always cheering me on.  (you know who you are 🙂 )

One of the lessons I’ve learned is not to settle.  Always be great.  So, in the next couple weeks I will be changing jobs.  This is one of those top 10 stressers in life but I know I will take it head on because there lies so many opportunities that I don’t want to miss out.  What I will miss are some amazing people I have been working with.  They are smart, passionate and will do great things.  Missing them already and I’m not gone.

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